But i have something on my heart i tat wanna share wif you guys( and gals).Before we get to that boring part. I would like to thank Kelly for her dim sum recommendation!
The awesomeness of the taste!! I'm still very high from it!! Feels like i can fly and touch the sky
** ~I believe i can fly~background music**
And now, a few apologies first,
1) Sorry Galvin, i don't do executive summaries.
2) My apologies for making some of you worry about me(for being so gloomy and lazy again!!)
3) Sorry for writing a long draggy post :P
4) I think tats it for now, haven been pissing anyone off lately.....i think!!
And now, my hearts content: Lets start with me;
It started with~ I feel like Moses. I think i am Moses, and then I am Moses~.
No! not the Humble servant Moses, Not God's friend Moses, Not the leader Moses, Not the Moses that lead Israel out of Eygpt, Not the Moses that God used to separated the Red Sea. I'm not referring to the Moses after, instead i'm looking at the Moses before. Before the Miracles, before the calling, before the burning bush. I'm talking about the Moses that was nothing more than a murderer, a coward, and a lazy useless fat pig.
The selfish and irresponsible Moses.
We share many things in common, excuses being the the one that tops the list. He killed an eygptian, and instead of repenting, he feared for his own life and ran to the wilderness. -Exodus 2:14-15-What a selfish act? How many times have i made a mistake, and instead of confessing, i chose to ignore it and ran away? How many times have i chose to live a lie? How many times have i placed myself first before others?
--Countless times--
The Coward with a Thousand Excuses.
In all honesty, God must have saw me, when he saw Moses at this point. The ridiculous amount of excuses Moses poured out before God!! Can you imagine, a burning bush that talks, is right before Moses, andstill he doubted!!In total, he gave 5 excuses in a single conversation with God -Exodus4:1-17-.And as you all know too well, i have an excuse for almost every circumctances that i'm in. Always twisting words to dig and wiggle my way out of trouble, out or work, out of problems and out of people's life.
The Faithless Moses
All the things he said about himself is true to a certain extent. He wasnt lying when he said he was not a good speaker, or a good leader, or the right person for the job. Looking at his resume, he's probably the worst candidate for what God intended to do. So we cant really blame Moses for being so faithless, afterall, all he ever did in his life was to run, run and keep running away. I'm not so different here either. I see testimonies around me, i witness miracles blossoming around me, i watched as lives around me are transformed by the hands of God. And yet, i still doubt him. Hesitating to reply him, hesitating to listen, hesitating to believe. Afterall, my life has always been a mess. And what else can a lazy messed up man like me do, other than being more lazy. Surely no good can come from me. I grew up with parents telling their kids that about me, My own parents tells me that all the time before, Teachers in school warns other student to stay away from me, and occasionally, people around me says that as well. Surely they cant be wrong, so many people agreed, only God disagree right. And God's voice is irrelevant when compared to the noise of the bigger crowd. God isnt perfect, why? cause he made me!!
** hahahaa laughs at God for being a loser**
The Crowd or Christ
Well! i would love to continue living my life like that. I always believed : It is far easier to prove a person right, than to prove him wrong ! So if they say i'm hopeless, then i be hopeless lar!! Easy kua, they win, i win. And up till this point, it is indeed much much more easier to live life that way. I no joking !! really alot easier.If you try and prove them wrong, u would live a very miserable life. Simple fact, i can never seem to please them or prove them right. Can try and try and try and try till no more hair, they still dun think of you as anything! been there done that. Then sometimes u mangae to please one party, but the other party becomes upset. So die die also you lose. Why even bother, just prove them right. Easy, easier and easiest way to go! Who cares what God thinks of me. Not like it matters!!
Conclusion
Dont get me wrong, i'm not bashing myself up. Nor am i endulging in self pity. I just need something to relate my point to, and i cant use some other peoples names and examples! Cause some peopl extremely sensitive, and defensive and will most prolly hate me for life. So i chose the best example to relate what i wanna say to you guys, which is my own life. I'm not fond of it, not proud of it, definitely hate talking bout it.................but i dont have a choice. God is knocking at the door of my heart. T_T
God knew Moses. He knows of his past sins. He knows of his flaws. He knows of his weakness. And God called him by his name!-Exodus 3:4-5- God called Moses over by his name. The coward, the faithless, the selfishness, the irresponsible-ness....................before God this things are irrelevant, obsolete, pointless. And exactly like Moses, God doesnt see that in any of us. God only knows one thing for us, and that is love. Thre is absolutely nothing you can so do to make him love u more, or love u less. He made you, you! and he loves you just the way you are.Your past is history, your future is a mystery, and your present is a 'present'. Our future is not shaped by what we did, it is shaped by what we do! Why try to please the world? why please something that is temporary? why try and please the things that would never be pleased? Who do we serve? The crowd who sondemns, or The God who loves? Your call.
Watch, as Moses gave his excuses, God answered all of it with assurances and promises, of which he kept. Just like everyone of us. As we present to God our fears, our doubts, our worries, he returns it with promises and assurances. People may doubt us, but God believes in you. People may see a dysfunctional clock, but God sees a miracle. People may see a beast, but God sees a beauty. One worth dying for. And the story doesnt end here. Every promise that he gave to Moses, he delivered and fulfilled. Likewise, what has God promised you? Whatever he has or will promise you, be sure he will see to it, that everyone of it is fulfilled to its fullest.
And finally, are some of you still running away from him? Let me give you a sound advice; Dont bother trying! Ypu can never escape his embrace. There is no way in the world or universe where his love cannot reach you. When god calls, he means it, and he'll do watever it takes to grasp your attention, to Moses it was a burning bush, to Jonas it was a huge fish, to Mary it was an angel, and to you?.... who knows? So are you gonna answer him? or hide and procrastinate? Have you all you been doing lately is talk talk and talk, but fail to deliver? One can know the bible inside out, but still fail to apply it. One can move millions with a powerful speech or talk, but can he live the talk, and change lives? or does all his flowery words only amazes people but fail to change them? One can seem very well kept on the outside, but extremely foul on the inside.
~God is calling, what is your response?~
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